last 6th sept was our 2nd anniversary.two years together.what a long time. i don't expect we would be that long.

he's going bck 2 perlis on the 5th. so we had a small celebration among the two of us 4 our anniversary. I was upset coz couldn't be together on the day but i'm grateful of what we had in these years.

wen headed 2 OU 4 bkk puasa. While waiting 4 him as he said he's going to the toilet, i received a sms

him : syg, i g tgk jeans kjap k

me : jgn lmbat sgt. Dah nk time bkk puasa

i waited for him. He still didn't appeared. I already thought there' something wrong here. I know him well. then, i saw him came with a cake. I knew this. I just smiled.

but, after we break our fast, the waiter came and put a white rose on the table and a cake that has been lighted up with two candles.i stunned.i feel like i'm in cloud nine :) we blew the candles together. when he smiled, i knew that smile. the smile that capture my heart for this two years :)

sorry, i cn't upload any photos as the camera is in coma :P

p/s : syg, thx so much. i love u and will always do

life is always not like what we expect it to be. It's really hard to have everything that u want. Sometimes life makes u hurt but then u have to wake up and continue the journey of life. Whatever that has been planned sometimes would never happen. A lot of obstacles that u need to go through. I'm emotionally unstable right now. I am very frustated with this chapter of my life. Why does this exist? Can i pretend that it never happen?

can you please try to speak out this time? don't you realise how i work hard for this moment but then this moment has turned me upside down. Don't you feel like what i feel now or it is just meaningless to you? is this thing is one of the biggest mistake that i has made in life?

i wish this was just a dream it would never be. let the faith decide cause i don't have any more hope in this matter.

I always felt like crying, it wasn't fair

that all the lovely canfuls smelt of rot.

each year i hoped they'd keep, knew they would not

last saturday was aleya's birthday bash! luckily she change the day tu tuesday or if not i won't be able to come. Athirah picked me up then we went to jj 2 byt the donashi n her pressie. as we arrived at danau kota, we're the last one to arrive. The nearest one always be the last right. there was so many ppl. we even took 2 tables as at first aleya said it's only 20 ppl bt then it turned out to be 25 ppl as ppl bring their other half :P..my other half was in klcc at that time

it's even a hard time to queue up to take the food! oh yeah! it is steamboat but i only ate a little as there's so many ppl and hate crowded places. but the service was not that good actually. No pinggan, no cutleries and all.

aleya was so happy as all her close friends were there. Well, happy 2oth birthday sweety :)

let the pictures speak :)

anyway, this is what athirah and i managed to get for her



p/s : now i know why i don't look nice with anak tudung...jz like what my other half told me

yesterday, i received news which somehow makes me happy and sad. Yes, i have both feeling. My fav aunt is getting engaged next year. Maybe it's still a long way to go but time flies without we realise it.


i'm happy that she'll end her bachelor life soon. It's already time for her to have her own family. But i'm sad as well that i know soon she has to follow her hubby and we cn only meet each other rarely. I'll be alone in family function. No one to hang up with especially when tasha is not around.

And, i want to get engaged too.....yeah! keep on dreaming eza :P i hv my own plan for my future. I plan to get engaged by 23 or 24 n get married b4 26... yeah! i'm a big dreamer :P but no matter what, i still has to wait for my dearest to finish his study n get a job... mama said ask him to get a job rite after graduate so that he can save money and we cn get married :)

it's the BIRTHHHDDAYYYY FOR THESE 3 PPL....

Happy Birthhhdayyy you all! mcm nok la pulak :P


This is my big brother yg sgt payah nk jumpa dia. Maybe bcause he's abroad bt even he comes bck here, still it's hard to meet him...haishh. Once years je only get to meet him..a phrase that he'll nvr forget to say , ''adek, jgn lupe mkn ubt''.....:)... i know la u're the future doc...huhu.. Whatever it is, Happy 24th birthday abg! is it 24th??heee

This strong man is my daddy who loves babbling at me but pampered me at the same time. Dah tua dah rupanya pak cik neh...bullying is his hobby. bt he's always there for me even for financial.hehe.......i love u daddy no matter what!

knew this mak cek since 3 years ago. from uitm to um, our friendship still going strong. She knows and understand me well. Happy birthday watip! jgn naughty2. oh yeah, she jz got the scholarship from yayasan TAR which means she'll treat us sooonnnn..... yeya! be happy with ur new life. ignore the past and move on k...

last monday was bapak and enda's anniversary. Happy 44th anniversary! we went out 4 dnner at tony romas at sunway. at first, enda doesn't want to has a dinner but daddy forced her to... we bought a new set of comforter for them. i was the one who chose them as i think i know her taste better. 'FOTOSTAT KU MARINA'. That is what i am known as among enda's friend and bapak's little girl although i'm not little. :)


to bapak and enda,

i will always love u no matter what. both of u are always there for me and i really appreciate that. Bapak, i may not be ur little girl anymore but i'm still ur girl whom u will never miss 2 call me everyday n kiss me each time we meet. i feel secure when u do that to me. Enda, i know i'm exactly like u. That's why we always get into fight. But i think i know u well...hehe...i still love u even u kike to blind ur eyes to me whenever i do something that u dislike

yesterday, i got a msg frm my lil sis, ena

ena : my kakak t'sayang yg gedik and bajet cun, happy sister's day nenek tue

me : tq2! happy sister's day too bdk kecik

ena : bdk besar la......

that is so swweettttt...... it' hard 4 ena 2 b as sweet as that coz usually she's just a heartless girl..never know how to pujuk ppl.. bt i think she's getting more matured now..in fact matured than me..everyone thought she's the kakak and m the adek :)

somehow, i think there are some secrets that she hide from me :)

i just miss her :)