This post will be very very emotional. So, if u don't feel like reading it, pls STOP READING











This post is being written in the emotion of emotionally unstable but intellectually stable. Which means that I am aware if what I wrote. Every words that I utter.

I'm not the kind of person who keep things and feelings to myself. I'm not an angel who will just let go things. NOPE.That is not me.

I can still accept what happened to me since last two weeks that really hurt the feelings but I put fullstop on it when the person a was like not knew what to do about it.

This all started two weeks ago and it' like 'karma' or 'jatuh ditimpa tangga'. I don't really tell everything to person A because i knew person A will still pertahankan the group.

tell me how i should keep quiet or just sit down when

1. Person Z said something that makes me really kecik hati. Come on la, i know u're terikat now but pls respect other people's feelings as well. Why don't sometimes u make the sacrification ? Why don't let u let ur other half to be with the family or at least CARRY OUT SOME RESPONSIBILITY TOWARDS THE FAMILY. I can understand that u want ur soulmate to be with you all the the time but can u pls at least respect others although that person is younger than u ? And now u make me lose respect towards u. Because maybe u don't realise that u affect other people's lives as well ? And because u think u are much older, you don't have to mengalah, u are VERY WRONG

2. Person Y was like put hope on me to settle a task. When I'm trying to settle the task, person Y talks happily about person A and the stranger. At that time, i'm already kcik hati. Then , this stranger puts more sugar and spice to make the food looks yummy. That makes my temperature goes higher. That was all old time story. Now person A is someone's property, so can u pls stop talking all that sweet memory lane coz at least try and understand how i feel ? And yes, that answers all my silence of that time. Just keep the story all to urself and the stranger. I repsect u but pls at least respect me too.

3. Person M take advantage of situation that he has. Person M left the work unsettled and doesn't even feel guilty about it. What person M know is just to be attached. Because person M knew that someone will correct the mistakes and that continues. To explain about person M is simply by using a connection like this :

how u want to afford the family if u don't have money -- how u want to make money when u don't settle ur work -- how are u going to settle ur work when u don't do it properly -- how u're going to do it properly when u are being irresponsible

Look, the connection are related. Can't you see it ? You even affectt others personal life. Tak pasal2 two people have to gaduh because of u while u re happily attached without knowing anything about it.


4. Person W always menjelma whenever person A wants to spent time with the love. Always. If once twice, people can still accept it but if it's always, then there's something about it. And person W don't even feel guilty at all. Come on. Live in the reality world. Ur lil person A has grown up and has own personal life. So, can u just let person A live the life without you become a disturbance in the personal life? U want people to respect you but think again, do u respect person A and the love? My aanswer would be nope. You just do whatever u want to without thinking about others.


AND, Person A...This is what I can advice u. You need to be brave enough and tell everyone that u have ur own life to live. U have ur own time to spent with ur love and not only with the group. Yes, before u belong to that group but now, u've grown up. U'll have ur own family. A family that u urself need to lead. Which means that ur life does not belong to the group 100% anymore now. Ur answer will always be they don't do it on purpose. Like i said,live on the reality world. After so many times it happen, u still feel they don't do it on purpose? This won't settled until u tell them what is wrong. I can sacrifice but after a limit, that's it. I'm not trying to be kurang ajar but i guess and i'm sure that all this while i have given them all respect that i could, but what i get in return? respect? nope. At least try and understand how i feel. U don't need to be told what to be said or done. I'm tired of telling u everytime what need to be said and to be done coz that really show how not serious you are.

You have the choice if you want to put a fullstop what happen or to just take it but the love will be leaving. Decision is in ur hands. I guess person A realise how all this has affect the life and the love life.

Allah is the Greatest

There was one night which I went for tarawikh,

tazkirah yg ada ustaz tu sampaikan can be said betul2 menusuk kalbu

'' Di bulan yg mulia ini, jika kita tiada masa dgn Tuhan

walaupun untuk menunaikan perkara yg wajib,

walaupun untuk beberapa minit,

lambat laun Tuhan pun x akan ada masa utk kita''

Nauzubillah

It really make me regret of what I have done all this while. i've always do anything without reallt thinking of HIM.So, this should be a good lesson for me.

Ya Allah,

Sesungguhnya aku hamba yang lemah di sisiMu

Kau dekatkanlah aku kepadamu dalam apa jua keadaan

Amin

p/s : everyone can change for the better. It's just whether u want it or you don't

tomorrow is the last day for 'Beautiful Bundle Dress Contest' which will end at 12am. I guess everyone knew that i entered the contest.

So, this is the picture that i pertaruhkan. Taken at Kl Tower during Tirah's birthday. I really a big fan of vintage and polka dot style.



So people, if you think i have the chance to win, do vote for me

1. Go to http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.219057144782466.58599.135300596491455&type=1

2. Click LIKE on the page button.

3. Click LIKE on my picture in http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.219057144782466.58599.135300596491455&type=1#!/photo.php?fbid=229429680411879&set=a.219057144782466.58599.135300596491455&type=1

Thank you very much :)

11th August 2011

One of the happiest day

Alhamdulillah, after about 3 years being together

He being frank and uttered words that really touched the heart

i believe that all girls will be happy if the lover do this 'something' to them

Alhamdulillah, it's official between the two of us

I have told my parents about our niat

and now waiting for his turn

InsyaAllah we'll try

to make things work before 2016